I’m so done with watching people walk in and out of my life like they dont think it would Hurt me. & when a so called “Bestfriend” finds a better option & a new person to walk into their life, they forget all about you. I guess I get too attached to people. & it’s the worst thing ever.

It’s like lately I been feeling a detachment from people. I don’t wanna be around anyone anymore. And the people I thought Id wanna be around.. Just 1) isn’t there for me & 2) I feel like I endanger their life just Talkin to them. When I try to talk to someone their response is either “that sucks:(” or.”:O dang” like Tf you being short with me for I’m trying so hard to keep myself stable & I trust you to listen to me yet you give me no feed back? That’s the kinda shit that puts me Ina dark hole where I just drown myself in all the things that got a tight grip on me. No one gets it… & to the one person who did.. Who just.. Thought it was okay to walk out on me when I needed her the most.. Whatd you think I was supposed to do without you? Half the time people wanna tell me they care but never can give me a few minutes of their time to enlighten me.. Even if I’ve heard “it’s gonna be okay” multiple times.. I just want someone to take a few minutes of their time to explain to me why I need to keep holding on…
What I’d give to start a new life away from here..
I just want someone… To Atleast act like my Existance matters.. Atleast act like it …

Someone to make me laugh nonstop. Your personality could possibly shine brighter than the sun. It almost stunned me that someone could possibly care for me a much as you did.
Calling me right away after seeing an emotional status of mine on Fb. It showed how much the way I felt about things, mattered to you. No texts, a call. Hours on end on the phone.. Never wanted it to end. Well I’d like to say thanks. But it was all a mistake. Allowing myself to fall for you was an idiotic move. Thinking you’d be different.. So stupid.
All in all, I hope she was worth it.